Waiting

I am not good at waiting. Patience isn't one of my virtues. Right now, I am getting antsy and mildly nervous. Why? I am waiting to go in to work tonight. We are launching a project this weekend and I was asked to go in and assist. I have never needed to go in to the office and work in the middle of the night before. It's a whole new experience to me. So, here I am, staying home and constantly checking the status of the project to find out when I need to go in. This will be a long weekend ...

A good distraction

Work can be a good distraction sometimes. About a year ago, I was starting to have a midlife crisis, but my work was so crazy at the time that I didn't have time to worry about me turning 40. Shortly after that, I met G and things were no longer the same. Things were great, in fact. Unfortunately, that didn't last and I was back to square one again.

Now, a year later, I am starting to dread that I will be spending yet another Christmas and birthday all alone. Then, my work has been insanely crazy once again. It actually saves me. Lately, I have little time to worry growing old all by myself.

As for Christmas, I will worry about it later. I have enough books, knitting projects and wine to keep myself entertained.

Jogging

I have never been physically active. Most of my favourite activities are rather sedate - reading, knitting, watching TV, cooking ... etc. Years ago, I worked out frequently, just to prove to my parents that I can lose the weight if I wanted to. I managed to bring my weight down to 90 lb. After that, my weight has never really stayed at that level. Let me say, I love my food, and working out on a cardio machine reminds me of a mouse running in the wheel.

Anyway, I want to get myself back to this workout routine. Not as frequent as I used to do. This time, my goal is to become fit and healthy. Other than using my stationary bike, I want to try jogging. The reason I used the word "try" is because I can't jog. I can walk for hours but I feel like I would have a heart attack after a couple of minutes of jogging. I am totally useless. I am hoping that I can do various cardio exercises during this winter and prepare myself for some outdoor jogging next summer.

Today, the weather was amazingly gorgeous. On a typical Sunday, I would go for lunch after church, and then spend the rest of afternoon reading and knitting while enjoying a cup of coffee at a cafe. Since it was sunny and mild, I decided to go for jogging/power walking session (run for a block and then walk for a block). It was refreshing.

Quote of the day 20091029

"No matter what you think you're looking for, it's only because you think that thing will bring you happiness. In my opinion, the fun thing is that it's always the simple stuff that will bring you happiness. It's not a big boat or fancy anything. It's a feeling, a smell, a taste, really simple core human needs."

~~ Curtis Stone. Based on an article in Sydney Morning Herald Online.

All alone

Sometimes, I feel so all alone even when I am surrounded by people. It's like there is an invisible wall built around me such that nobody can reach towards me. Or, it's like I am a total foreigner and so nobody can understand me.

Autumn

Recession? What recession?

Lately whenever I visited an LCBO store (liquor stores in Ontario, Canada), I happened to see long lineups at the cashiers. Seriously, what recession? If people can afford to buy booze, we are definitely doing OK.

Coexistence of different views

Just found out that it is possible that National Post newspapers might no longer be published beyond tomorrow due to funding issues. It might also be consolidated with other newspapers under CanWest.

I don't have a habit of reading printed newspapers. I don't mind reading paper and it can be quite relaxing if I can take the time to read through it in the weekend. However, it's quite a bit of work when I have to bring the old papers to the recycle room. I usually browse the online news Web sites. I don't have a strong preference for any specific news site. I am more interested in the subject covered in the articles. Still, I know each newspapers has its own focus and political bias. So, there are very loyal readers who would read nothing but one specific newspaper. In fact, I have heard some people said the newspapers other than their preferred one are all crap.

Someone told me the National Post is the voice of the Conservatives and he despised NP and its readers. Obviously, he is a Liberal. So, I am guessing those who are like him would care less if NP ceases publishing after tomorrow. To me, that is a pity. Not that I am a NP fan nor I am a Conservative. I believe that each person can entitle to his/her own beliefs and preference as long as he/she is not imposing his/her views on others and he/she is not hurting other people. I find it interesting to hear different views sometimes even though I don't agree with them. Just for the sake of argument, let's say the perspectives on NP are way too biased. Without its presence, we might have nothing to compare our views with.

Just a thought.

Half full = Half empty

I can never remember which one means being optimistic/pessimistic - Glass half full? Glass half empty? Whatever.

I don't know whether I am optimistic or pessimistic. Some people think I am happy all the time while some others said I worry too much.

Anyhow, I noticed that I tend to look from the bright side of things while people around me tend to look for the flaws and potential problems. For example, I found Google Street View very useful. When it was first launched for Toronto, I happened to be meeting my friend at a place that I had never been to before. I didn't know exactly where I was going to get off. So, I looked up the location using Google Street View. I saw a particular building at the intersection where I was going to get off the bus. That gave me a rough idea where I was heading to.

How did other people react? Someone was shocked when she found her house in Street View. She believed that she could almost see into her house because she didn't close the drapes. Well, imagine a person on the street decides to take a picture of the area and post it online. How is this different from Street View? Also, if people have no bad intentions, this can be considered as a useful tool. If people do have bad intentions, they will find a way to accomplish their goals even if Street View didn't exist.

Should I worry why I seem to overlook the down side of things sometimes?

To me, half full and half empty mean exactly the same thing, no matter how you look at it. A fact is a fact. If I knew the volume of the glass, say it's 200 ml, I would tell you that the glass contains 100 ml of liquid.

Wondering why

I sometimes wonder if I am actually invisible to some people or I have a sign that says "Run me over" on my back.

Today, people kept bumping into me! A woman pushed a door so hard that it banged right on my leg and almost tripped me over. She didn't even bother to pause for a second to apologize. Later, I almost got run over by a shopping cart. When I turned to see who tried to kill me, I saw this man baring his teeth at me. I guess he was practicing his Halloween look. To be honest, I was quite terrified and in confusion, I apologized to him for being run over by his cart.

Lost in the world of knitting

It's really hard to evenly distribute my spare time among all of my hobbies. I want to read, draw, knit, do yoga, cook, daydream (which contributes to blogging) ... etc. Still ... knitting is something I can do while watching TV and DVDs. So, I have been spending more time on knitting, and so the resources for blogging and creative writing have been greatly reduced. Last weekend, I went to the Creativ Festival where I bought a lot of yummy yarn, met Mr./Ms. Alpaca, and saw amazing quilting projects (very tempted to try but I can't really sew). Now, I have got enough yarn for the many projects I want to try in the next 12 months.

Still ... I wish there is a guy who wants to compete with my hobbies over my spare time. I haven't had a real date for ages.